Tuesday, September 25, 2007
the urge to leave is getting stronger and stronger. i wouldnt want to live in the world that i dun have the interest in. who would anyway.. but i have to stay. even though its heart aching. it brings me sickness that i never had before. those headaches. tiredness. upset ness. restless. and whatever goes in line. cant live with it, cant live without it.
as now i am working on 2 projects, and being a junior designer, i know less then little. it's tiring when i have 2 work desks, 14th and 18th floor. most of the time, i'll be on the 14th floor. and those helpful seniors are on 18th. so u imagine. the total time travelling up and down to get them is equivalant to completing one drawing. 'but we're left with no other choice' thats what they say. everyday 4pm i will travel up to 18th to work on my 1st project. trying to rush as dues are nearing. and to add the HAPPINESS of the rush, somebody with no heart and soul and BRAIN, left some papers on my desk with a note 'NOR, FOR FILING. THKS.' oh you're most welcome BIG ARSE...and the papers can sometime weigh almost to 1kg. so u see the thickness? and i have to literally check the master copy before filing to avoid duplicates. and thats the reason why sometimes i stayed late. *su bukan nye aku tak nak balik, now u noe*
but during fasting month, i tried *and managed* not to stay late cos i wanna spend it with family.
after months of waiting, like FINALLY, a new guy coming.to take over me. for one of the project that is. i was hoping he will cover the 14th floor job. cos i cant stand the 14th floor people. inconsiderate people. and the work is so into details. was relieved for a while. but the very next day, got to know that he will be at 18th floor. F! why? just because he dont know PDMS. eh i also dunno lah ok. i went for training. someone guided me through the work. why cant he? or even, why cant you employ those with experience huh BOSS?? oh, their previous pay is higher then what you can give. so, you'd rather see your junior employee struggle. heh. forget it, i wont struggle here any longer. i am thinking of shifting. for the better. im going back to school. *insyaAllah*
i hope those BIG ARSES sitting in big rooms wont have any problem finding a replacement for me.
Take me as far as possible
