Tuesday, November 6, 2007
tears rolling
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heart heavy
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nausea
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yesterday after work, i went straight to ang mo kio to his house. wasnt feeling sad at all. had dinner, watched tv, talked laughed. striked 10pm, we went off to changi airport terminal 1. once stepped in the departure area, my heart felt 10 times heavier. eyes red. but managed to control the tear. and so we sit together again talking and laughing especially with hendra and another friend of his, saufi i think his name is, how they teased me and din. and i got to know that if i cry, i am not the only one feeling that way, cos someone did before. nvm. 12.50 he have to check in. everybody started walking towards the gate. grabbed his arms tight but he shook it off, obvious reason, the parents in front. but i cant help it. and there he went in. mothers with tears, girlfriends waving, ya Allah, i just wanna cry there. he'll be gone for only 2 weeks. 2 pathetic weeks, and i am already feeling so...undescribable. we didn't wait long, even though i feel like waiting, and hendra n fren was willing to accompany me. but staying will only make me cry. so listened to his parent's advice, go home, rest tomorrow have to work.
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in the cab, the driver was tuning in to class 95. and u noe wat the channel play at night.. it makes me worst lah..
seeing an unknown number on my phone, i know its him using one of those free phones. and the streaming tears had become a waterfall.
and thanks shaf for your msges..
for now, i am sleepy and i have to think of a way to keep me busy besides working. cos what i have planned doesnt seem right..
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...have a nice day ahead people...
Take me as far as possible
