Wednesday, February 13, 2008
tomorrow is Valentine's Day.
last year, he got to book out. and he fetched me from work and send me home. i bought him a Cadbury Tray. and he bought me Lacoste Touch of Pink.
BUT i'm not sure if that is what we did last year. GOSH!! i forgot what we did? or was it he fetched me and we watch movie and he passed me the perfume... ok i'm dead. i'm sorry B.
as for this year, i'm not sure. wont be celebrating i guess. lagipun our 2nd anni will be on 16th feb. and that we have already celebrated both events in advance. *winks*
but to perks things up during this 'season', i (we) have planned a few things. when he planned to watch movie, i suggest a movie marathon. and i also would love to eat ice cream. or maybe a chocolate fondue... B pleeeeeeeez. i'm sure u gonna say those words, but pleease B.. can? thank you very nice..
which i have to say, we'll sorta celebrating it lah.. hehe
oh now i remember!! last year i sew him a bolster........ hand made lagi.. i also sew our names on it. i wonder this year i'm not as enthu as last year. hmmm, which gave me an idea. to cook for him. or maybe bake cupcakes again. or maybe...
hmmm
*evil smile*
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ok back to now. the fact that stressness is all over me. and this migrane have been paying their visits quite often now. and the cramps that i'm feeling now and then (how come they didn't come on the first day eh?).
tomorrow is 14th february 2008. besides valentine's day, it is also the day when poly applications are open. the fact that i'm having a good job is not enough to my father. he wants me to get a diploma.
'gaji lebih. dorg tak tgk course. dorg tgk diploma je'.
'ba, not all company mcm tu. and what for wasting 3 years kalau keje tu tk relevent ngan cert'
ok i noe he got his point there. but i am 23 this year. by the time i graduate (if i get to school) i wil be 26. and thats quite old (a bit late) to start a fresh. to start looking for jobs. thats if i get the relevent job. if not, then, isnt it a waste. and i am not the kind who loves to quit and start new job. i am not good in that. considered part time studies. but i'm not sure if i can cope with the timing. GOD, please shine me the right path. i dont wanna waste time on things that are uncertain. i dont wanna regret on later day, far from dissapointing my parents.
looks like one simple thing such as applying school can lead to numerous problem.
this, i have not mention about money. and mother's question 'bile kau nk kahwin ah ayin? sepupu kau semua da kahwin'...
it's all about what i want. but at the same time, i dont want to dissapoint the people who raised me. enough of all the treatments they get from others. they are stressed enough.
but...
there's always a BUT to everything isn't it?
ya Allah, berilah petunjuk Mu kepada hamba Mu ini, ya Allah. sesungguh nya Kau lah maha pengampun, pengasih dan lagi maha penyayang. Amin.
Take me as far as possible
